Saturday, May 28, 2005


» Hp woes «

My 6100 just died on me yesterday night. Ahhhhhhh. Was using halfday, then it just blank out. When i try to switch it on again, it was on for a few secs(the white screen), then it turned off again. -.- I went to surf the web, wonder how to fix(like i can?? lol.)...went across this 'nokia hardware repair thingy' say i have to flash it. chIm. zz

Argh, i feel so disconnected now. Is like the end of school, starting of the holiday - the phone just have to blank now. Also, i just realised all the contacts is in the phone..the sim card onli stored 1 number =.=" and the calender where i date all lessons etc, i don't know what time it starts now.

I'm so overly dependent on my phone. crApz. Nxt time if the contacts could be saved, i wld write it all out n keep it somewhere lol.

Anyway i'm going to bring it to the nokia care centre, what other choice i have? Just so nice that i bought the phone last year april 27th i think, 1 yr to now...the warranty is void. oh well.

it just remind me of you

Flew away at 9:55:00 AM

Thursday, May 26, 2005


» Stuck «

Is still there. I'm hopeless. cMi.

it been so long. yet

Flew away at 6:22:00 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005


» The Big Picture «

I don't care a thing now, i feel so nonchalant. Don't even want to answer. Is like totally the opposite of previously. So put off somehow, 180 degree change. Too bad then. Distancing seems like the way.

It felt so crystal clear, when it was tangled up initially.

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Being in the last class of the series or anything, as long as is the last. Really sux. Felt like the guinea pig, the one that would be sacrificing for anything that cope up. You would never see them doing it to the first class. yah coz is the first class, where all the potential candidates lie, where they are likely to perform well. Thus any small disruption or changes would be prevented if necessary.

I so want to prove them wrong. hopefully i'll.

I really didn't know it would be so, my sec.sch was ok i feel. no such things. Where actually in my sec.sch, is the first few class which were being used that time.

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And i'm not THAT smart, why can't you all shake off the impression that i'm smart?? somehow ppl i aint close with, suddenly want to borrow my tutorial, ppl exclaimed i thought you very smart one..when know i failed bio, and etc.

wadeva.

why dwell on the past...

Flew away at 10:20:00 AM

Sunday, May 15, 2005


» Realization «

It hit me yesterday, how i could never recover nor have some stuffs again. I didn't realise finding one who live in around the same area actually matters. weird huh. haha.

I know i'm comparing, but is like so different. such a stark contrast.

Previously it was more obvious, at least i could really tell, and it was more initiated. That's why it worked perhaps. Now? I don't even know if it meant a thing. Is blurred. Though i think it should, but is like so normal? Moreover, it seems like i'm initiating it, i am the one trying. ironic.

Gotten way too comfortable around? The horoscopes? =x hahaax. I do not know.

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Oh and i realised, i can't really click(as in hang out? or really talk, know what i mean?) with those people from girls sch it seems, except perhaps the cresent girls' school (proven so) and a one two. Not saying they are what or anything, they are perfectly fine and actually fun to be with etc. I think is just Me. Anyway is like all the girls' sch people they get along with each other very well, and tata i noticed is like a clique - all made up of girls' sch ppl. Maybe is the same culture? HmmX.

Flew away at 11:20:00 AM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005


» i'm 17! «

I turn 17 today! in other words is my BIRTHDAY, in case you didn't know. Most importantly where's my presents??? xP hahah

ehx, went to school as usual. I don't feel anything special even though is my birthday. yupz. oh, i used the 'new ripcurl bag', my prezzie so cool hahaax. Thx l1r5! muackz, love ya all =x
Then got few presents from my friends too, yupz. Meaningful stuffs. And you know suppose to have some cake, celebrate my birthday and my fren ytd hahaax, but the person in charge was absent awwww. hahaaax, is ok is ok.

Stayed and watched rugby match, ac vs sa. Sa lost sad. Then is like i skip some stupid GP talk to watch match and etc, die..wonder how to answer to teacher oh well.
Anyway got to see HUANGWEI and EUGENE~! it rox. Then came sa, watch match? haha. And is like so nice of them, we went to eat dinner later... celebrate my birthday. haha! i got treated to Mac at clementi mahz. yUpz.

oh i got a cake frm 'dad'...surprise surprise. And, it juz show how u don care at all, so mean..nt like i care anyway le.

There's some stuffs too.

thx so much everyone =] thx everyone who wished mi.

Flew away at 8:54:00 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005


» i'm losing it «

I think i'm breaking down, no wait correction - i broke down, cried n everything. yah broke down after i got worked up..she just don get it. and the neighbours are happily watching e show starring the main character - mi, one even walk pass stand at e door ouside n looked. what the hell is with them.
is it pms? depression? or e darn PI? wadeva. i just can't take it anymore. My life is screwed, my family is screwed, everything is screwed basically - i'm screwed too..i think there's seriously something wrong with mi, mentally unstable or something maybe i shld realli go IMH. no wait on 2nd thoughts, i don even feel like living. what's e pt rite? there's no point in living. no point in I living. i shld juz die off. go jump down the building or something. it wld be great.

[edited] i feel bad. todae is mother's day, and wat i did?

Flew away at 2:46:00 PM

Saturday, May 07, 2005


» ocs trip «

went to ocs - offical cadet school (if i'm not wrong) again. I been there during sec.sch, so there's nothing new. The itinerary is mostly similar, but the 2nd-BEST part of it was to go up the 'safti tower' woo.
It totally rox up there. The view was spectacular awesome breath-taking etc hahaax, and is like really windy up there, nice breeze. The cadet up there was really friendly and nice to talk to too. =] The tower is 60m tall and has 265steps up, which fortunately the lucky 8 of us took the lift hEex.

Nothing much after, the BEST part of the whole trip was that i get to see friends again as there's other sch who went too - njc vjc cjc. yupz. Saw Mingli, Keesok, Quan You, Gaya and did some catching up with them. A really pleasant feeling to see them again.. happy* haha.

Anyway the whole trip was pretty tiring and boring sometimes. I didn't how it suppose to end at 5.30, govin said the latest 4. crapz? Then is like it dragged on, and we left onli at 6+? Moreover have to take the bus back to sch, WORST still it drive pass my HOUSE there to go back sch. ahhhhh...kinda stupid i felt, that i have to travel all the way back home again.

Have Bio test this mon, tons of hw to do. My stupid PI got REJECTED flat, now must think of another idea again. omg.

i'll prove them wrong. hopefully

Flew away at 1:32:00 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005


» my 16yrs old' nafta test «

I'm sixteen going seventeen =] get e hint*? hahaax

Anyway i completed my nafta..or is it call nafa wadeva..u get e idea. For ur info i'm e only one in the clz, who done the nafta test this week. All others are like doing it nxt wk? This week is training for them, but for mi? is the actual real one.

Why? coz my bdae is nxt tues..and i wld be magic 17 by then. Which u noe, my Standing Board Jump sux! 16 n 17 yrs old, matters to mi. lol. toopid.

So i ran my 1st ever 6 rounds of 2.4km ytd, did the 5 stations todae. cool huh. I did everything for the very 1st time ran for the very 1st time and is actualli my nafta liao. My muscles are aching frm ytd 2.4 run too, i really donno how i pulled it off.

So i gotten:



so i gotten silver.

Now i wonder when e clz are doing nafta test nxt wk? 2.4km run? wat i do? stand there with e clipboard record timing? heex =x

You don't know, i don't too.

Flew away at 7:05:00 PM