Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Flew away at 2:00:00 AM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

» small thing «

Is just a conversation..

small thing

but it matters to me
somehow

would there be another time?

i can't think of any excuses to

i had known so clearly. i'm just deceiving myself

is a dream. nv to be true.

Flew away at 1:54:00 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

» Nostalgic «

Was chatting with one of my friend :) We decided to 'uncover some stuffs' together (was it me who go ard 'snooping' 1st? haha..), guess we were bored....or not. Just concerned perhaps, just wanted to know more abt a certain friend, to find out..something is on.. And can't just ask too.

I felt nostalgic.

Everyone goes different ways. They would make new and closer friends. You can't expect them to remain at the same spot, guess this is so. Is inevitable.. Saddening.

I lost it already..or perhaps not..soon i guess. But i'm trying! If not it might never be recovered. I got a feeling, that this is not the end yet. More is bound to occur... Guess the problem lies with mainly me. i just hate it.

If i didn't wake up, it would be forever..

Flew away at 10:59:00 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

» wadeva «

Yah i realise once again, ppl like mi. just aint meant to be. cMi. or wadeva shiet. EQ low, interpersonal skills sux, shall die somewhere along e way. yah ok is getting worst, nth ever goes my way. is hopeless. i juz don feeling like calling, damn weird. is too late now anyway?

Yah 1 look n u can tell.

Feel my lifeforce draining away haha.. wadeva.. just so tired of everything.

Fallen.

Flew away at 8:33:00 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

» ex-05s62 «

yah x05s62 outing. haha. Went wanli's house The Carribean BbQ. not bad. some ppl didnt make it though.

I was like dotx lah, when i heard it. OH PLZ. Is not THAT way, get it straight right before you all go around spreading/talking/saying okiez? Don't spoil my reputation =x haha. Around that meaning, is not nice if is the WRONG thing going around. I certainly DO NOT like it. If is the correct form, like i care? -.- bleAhx.

oh and by the way, i cut my hair. I didn't mention right? haha. Is like today one ask me, you went to style? Another said, you wax it or something? huh? my hair is just cut that way, i didn't do anything. haha

It dawn upon me =x I HAVEN'T START REVISING YET. I'm in deep shit. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and i meant it. i didn't even touch it. not a single thing. argh.

Nothing would change it.
It turns into a drop of tear and remain in the heart forever after

Flew away at 12:08:00 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

» camp «

YAY i'm back from the co-op camp finally! 3 days 2 night camp. hahaax.

Quite fun, and it was actually pretty slack. There's like a lot time inbetween, nt that hectic like you were always rushing or what.

Anyway, the part that had made the most impression was the night walk and those station games. yupz. The night walk was darn scary(to me), is like we are blind-folded, and are suppose to feel the string and walk ALONE. bleAHx. And the route was like so long, i keep wondering why haven't reached the end yet. While you were walking, the facilitators will be scaring you lah.

Those blow in your face, pull your hair, pull your shirt, grab your leg was still ok and etc. Worst was those, that TALK. ahhhhhhhhh. i screamed a few times =x is like they speak in chi, "jie jie, can play with mi not?" darn scary lah. that kind of voice, and keep asking. When i didn't reply. suddenly another person out of the blue, just shouted. "WHY YOU DON WAN TO PLAY WITH MI!!??" scare the daylights out of mi(got such things? =x) hahah. and etc lorz.

Oh and i learnt sign language(nt camp activities, another diff thing), during those few days, is for CIP initially.

The deaf association or something the ppl came down, and taught us yupz. IS COOL. hahaax. i learnt the "A-Z", numbers, and our pledge, and the singapore song - Uniquely You. The song is especially hard to sign, and the chorus is like so hard! hahaax. Anyway think during national day, we all would be getting down to the marina south there? And would be signing the pledge and song. =]

Fruitful days. hahaax. But i'm like tired after everything. Oh and i decided not to run for the commitee, is quite doTx.

Flew away at 9:55:00 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

» deja vu «

Been experiencing some deja vu (there's the stroke thingy, on "e" and "a", blogger doesn't supports those weird letters) , it makes mi wonder.

Why do we have these feelings anyway, tat dull familiarity, the impression that we actually experienced it before.
Is a weird feeling, knowing at the actual point it happened before, yet no matter what can't possibly recall what would happen next and etc.

Is like maybe some dreams you had predicted the future. (is it possible?) but one can't possibly rmb all their dreams. [side note: when you sleep you have 'small dreams' and 'big dreams', and is always more than 1 dream, 5 or 6 dreams are the norm. However, the human brain doesn't rmb them all. yupz]
Thus is lost or subconsciously one does rmb. That when the familiar scene repeats itself in reality, it struck them - deja vu.

Is it so?

i need to wake up from my dreams. Get a reality check. Is no longer there.